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When everything feels like the movies,

you bleed just to know your alive

8/9/05 10:13 am - fakexsmile05


I tell lies when I'm afraid, afraid of what I don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about me, but everytime I tell a lie, the thing I fear grows stronger. Maybe I'm scared to face the things I've failed in life. Life doesn't hurt until you realize how much things have changed who you havelost, and how much of it was your fault. I've been alone for so long, I've forgotten how much it hurts to wake up. I tell myself it's alright, I don't have any regrets, but there's one thing you should know, I forgive, but I can't forget. I'm the closest thing to perfect, but the furthest from me.


What's one cut on your wrist, one lie being told, one promise being broken, one life being taken??


Why do I keep having 'dreams' of the past and what happened in the past? Why can't I just forget it? They turn into nightmares, and I never know how it turns out at the end.. Is that how my life is, and will be??


Trust takes a long time to earn,

But when somebody breaks it,

You turn against the world

And everything’s a lie

That you say.


4/18/05 05:31 pm - 4getingxpain - I've never really been a happy person

I guess when they say some ppl r born happy there right cuz i've alwayz been violent and I've alwayz been unhappy

I've been a cutter for almost 3 years

I make it thru by helping othrs

but i barely make it thru

becuz i fail at helping when all i do is hurt

but theres no happy ever after

im just a bitch with a mask living in society

with too many scars to count

inside and out

well i had a girlfriend

that i luved vry much

but shes gone now and i guess thats that

this movie doesnt hav a vry good story to it everything sux

2/7/05 01:28 pm - 2gether4ever_67

I was sick today.. passed out a few times.. no biggy
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